A State of Mind......
The thing about depression, I think, is that it's a bloody sneaky ailment. It creeps up on you suddenly. You can be feeling perfectly ok, if a bit crotchety or under par, but put it down to factors beyond your control - the weather, tough times at work, latterly Covid - whatever. Then one day you wake up and it hits you. You are not simply pissed off about these things: you are really really REALLY unhappy about them. It's beyond anger. Mere frustration is gone. Forget a little bit sad. You are Depressed. This can happen relatively quickly, a matter of weeks. Or it can be dragged out over months - years even. You don't want to get up. You don't know what to do, how to face it. You want to shut yourself away somewhere and wallow in self pity. Every little thing that is not right (in your befuddled brain) makes you blubber like a two year old. Your appetite goes. Your concentration levels drop through the floor. You no longer see the point in carrying on w